How I Experienced Meditation Deep Inside
Not another how-to guide. Sharing the real life change I’ve had.
I was never a meditation guy. I used to believe meditation had nothing to do with busy people. It’s for monks, not for professionals.
So starting meditation was something I was never prepared for. I was busy with growing business for my clients , improving my career and my own business, and I used to have long to-do list.
But you know, strange things happen.
I started meditation one day. And here’s what happened when I did.
Stillness, a simple yet powerful shift
I am a busy professional. For me, stillness was absolutely a new experience. The first thing that I experienced was the stillness — just sitting and doing nothing. It was difficult for me, very difficult. A voice in my head was telling me to be worried, anxious because I had lot of things to do. I had long to-do list and a day ahead. I was wasting my time. My whole body was resisting. I felt like I ran. Even I stood up in the middle of my meditation one day. I thought, “Man, how people do that?”
But slowly and steadily, I became still.
The day I could sit for 20 minutes was my first entrance towards meditation world. The door opened that day.
My breathing got extra fresh air. I felt like I was taking more oxygen than ever before.
After I started sitting for that l-o-n-g 20 minutes, and staying still, I was watching every second of it with great wonder, feeling fresh air coming in. I was breathing in and breathing out. It was so refreshing that I never felt like before. I was feeling my blood moving through my vein. I was noticing my thoughts coming and going away, but I was still. I was like the sun, and those thoughts were like clouds.
I’m not my thoughts
For the first time, I felt I was not my thoughts. I was watching over my thoughts, those ridiculous thoughts. And it was not affecting me because it was not me. I felt the complete detachment with my thoughts. I was standing just beside my thoughts. I was letting those thoughts coming and going away.
Acceptance
I was accepting everything. I was accepting my being still, And from that very moment, my muscles were getting relaxed, I felt so relieved and free of all anxiety.
Void
I was in the void. And I was not trying to fill it up with anything.
Fearlessness
I felt the fearlessness. I was completely detached from all thoughts and I felt so powerful that I was fearless.
The whole process took 60 days. And when I was doing that practice every morning, I felt I could think more clearly and my productivity improved so well that I was doing things more efficiently. I was surprised to see my performance improved, my thoughts got faster and clearer. I was more focused. I felt like I just got a brand new brain.
I had back pain. I felt every moment because I used to spend long time sitting on a chair and working on my laptop. After I had this meditation experience, my back pain was gone.
What I’ve learnt
Everyday we spend time with worry and anxiety. We worry about the next moment, next day, next month, and next year. We never live in the present moment. Either we live in past or future. Those are only thoughts. Past and future doesn’t exist in present moment. They exist in our thoughts. And the biggest mistake we make is, very often we forget we are not our thoughts. The moment we can realize that, we get the power to put control over our thoughts rather than giving it the control to overpower us.
